Tuesday, 23 May

Dry

In the afternoon I went to visit the Icelandic Minister. He said that in Iceland the sun never sets in the summer (24 hours of sunshine), the weather is not too hot, and it is a good place for a holiday. In the winter, Iceland is not so cold because it is an island and has the Gulf Stream. Every year it only snows about two weeks to one month. Now he lives in a single room in a hotel. It is a great pity.

In the evening I dreamt beloved (name unknown) separated from me because she thought we had no future. I also thought that she had this idea so I just let her go. If we just take self-interest as the base of love, just stress materials but ignore feelings, and simply disregard the situation and fortunes of the partner, and only ask the partner to sacrifice for her, then there will be no good result for the love affairs. For me I think the concept of love which can be eternal is based on righteousness. She should love his merits, integrity, and thoughts as well as knowledge. If a man only loves the outlook of a woman, he is just a loafer. If a woman only loves status and materials, she is just selling her body and not what I view as love. Perhaps my concept is too obsolete. But as she expressed her unwillingness to sacrifice, I had no choice but to show sympathy to it. But when I thought of the time we first fell in love I felt an ache in my heart. When I woke up I found my tears had made my pillow wet. In the past few days my work has made me feel bad. Added to this is this nightmare. Perhaps I have to pay for the debt I owe in this life as well as the previous one. I believe in karma. I suffer to pay my debt, when I have settled it the burden will be lessened. I tried to console myself like this.